Jan 10 2009
God
Here is a little bit about me, how I feel and what I believe. What does it have to do with being a mom? Everything. 
I think people have the wrong idea when it comes to religion. Even those who say they believe in God and want to follow his word sometimes get it wrong. God is loving, not just to those who follow him; he loves everyone. I cringe when I see people holding up signs that say things like “God hates fags” or when I hear about an abortion bombing. God doesn’t hate the sinner he dislikes the sin. Hate wont bring someone to God and two wrongs don’t make a right. The best way to get someones attention and to make them hear you is to hear them! Before you open your mouth, you should open your ears, open your heart; listen to what they have to say and what they believe. Put yourself in their shoes and try and understand where they come from. Once you’ve done this then know your audience and don’t lecture. Understanding that you’re no better than them and acting no better than them is also important. People wont listen to you if you lecture and act better than them, it’s a turn off and you’ve just created a wall between you and them.
Something I didn’t understand or realize until I read it in one of the Left Behind books; no sin is too great for God to forgive. All sins can be forgiven and all sins are equal. Here on Earth some sins are worse than others but in Gods eyes no sin is worse than another; a sin is a sin. It took me a while to understand that and I think it’s important for everyone to realize.
I bring this up for so many reasons I can’t begin to explain. God is my life; I go to him for everything good and bad. I pray all the time that he will help me be the mother and wife he wants me to be. I pray for the strength and courage to do what is right every day. Before I drive off somewhere I pray that he will protect me and whoever else may be in the car, that we will arrive to our location safely.
I know I’m not perfect and I don’t pretend to be. I have a temper which I’m ashamed of. I have very little control over my mouth when I get angry and I am ashamed and pray about this all the time. The only thing in my life which I let my friends pressure me into was cursing and I regret it. I fear my daughters first words will be a curse word and this scares me because if my daughter slips and says something in front of my grandma or at a grocery store, how does that make me look as a mother? My husband is guilty of this too. Sometimes I swear he has turrets because he screams out random curse words for no real reason. (I think he thinks he’s funny.)
My job as a mother is to teach my daughter all about life; God is my life. I will teach her not to hate and that no one is perfect. I’ll do my best to not let her get attached to material things because when we die they don’t go with us; they also wont get us into heaven.
I found a web site once on accident that explains why Jesus died for our sins. It’s written by a former agnostic (someone who believes it’s impossible to know whether or not there is a God.) and it’s kind of long but worth reading. “Why Did Jesus Die?”
